This is turning out to be a strange kind of week. With the Beaver on Saturday I am struggling to think beyond that. It is a strange mix of excitement and anxiety. I made the mistake of looking at the times for last year and to be honest the vast majority seem much faster than me. My overall goal is to come in the top half of the field but judging by my times to date I am not confident that will happen. I keep imagining coming last and having people closing the course behind me. I know that this type of thinking doesn’t help and I am fighting it by:
• Contextualizing it as a just another step on the way to ironman, a right of passage
• Remembering that on race day my times are likely to be quicker, • That the distances and not quite 50% of the ironman distance and so I am not comparing like with like.
• I will learn masses about myself as a result of participating in this event
• It will be a great achievement to finish, something I wouldn’t have countenanced a year ago
• These mind games are part of it and coping or even thriving on them will help me in future races
• The race is so long that small mistakes will not dramatically affect the result
• Fear is a good thing and part of being alive
• I have done the mileage now I just have to do the last little bit
As read these I feel better, having this chat has helped, thanks for listening
So as far as today’s training is concerned a 30 minute swim this morning and then I should have run this evening. But I didn’t. Deep down I felt I needed the rest and listening to my body felt more important than sticking to a schedule
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